today sucks

Like.

Really sucks.

Now that we're down to the wire with this house, I'm ready to flip the eff out!

The final days before closing are the most awful days of the whole process.

Awful.

This should be an exciting time.

But it isn't.

At. All.

It's BEYOND stressful.

And I'm about to give a lot of money to a mortgage company I hate.

I actually loathe our lender.

I would never recommend them.

And I hate that they are profiting off of me.

I want this process to be over.

And once it is, I am never buying another house ever again.

You think I'm overreacting or being dramatic?

I'm not.

This is my 1 and only home ever.

I told Bryan that they are wheeling me out of this house and putting me in the grave.

True story.

To sum up this process for those who know me...

I would compare it to buying a wedding dress.

This is worse.

100 x worse.

But I don't have hives this time.

Or my mother sweeping in to save the day.

But I promise you that come Friday, I will be covered in hives.

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Oh, and I have the most attention starved dog in the history of dogs.

She's driving me insane.

All she wants to do is play.

And all I do is bribe her love with treats and chicken.

Because I don't have time for her right now.

My bribery is working.

Thank God Calz is easy to please.

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I just ate an entire Haagen Dazs 14 oz. ice cream container.

Peanut Butter & Chocolate.

1225 calories.

No shame.

No guilt.

Worth every. effing. calorie!

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And have I mentioned that Bryan is in NYC...

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Eff me!